had a tiff today...out of nothingness, or that the reason i dunno. I have been wanting to say i am sorry but i dunno where to start of. Recently we have been quarreling over small thgs and today till the point that i did not know what that made u sad. I know i must have done something wrong and said something wrong. Maybe u r right all along. I cannot differentiate between love and like, and that my wanting to be with u is just out of daily habit. i have been thinking the whole day, whenever u r back in ur hometown, u can always smile and laugh so happily and whenever u r here, u rarely laugh. I know and i know by heart that only them can make u happy. I am just not worthy for u since all i brg is just troubles, problems, and unhappiness. I hate seeing u sad and cry..... But on the other hand, how i wanted to phone u now, but i dunno what to say next. I am just a jerk blocking ur path. I wanted to say 'I love u' but then my courage plunged. Since in the beginning, u are dy given the choice to ignore me....u r not obliged to account for anyone nor anythg to accept all my feeling..... Sometimes i wish i did tell u to just stay away from me, but i hesitated. My heart ache. Very. I miss u every night. Your sometimes sudden coldness interchange with friendliness baffled me. you're not wrg.....since i am the one who started all this. Maybe u r better to be with them in hometown. I just owe u too much that i cannot face u anymore.....I dunno all this is all the statement when we are on hot heads now or that i am just too emo..... but i really nid some space of mine to voice out....

Sorry that i made u sad,

Thank you for everything,

i love you

the time now is 8.14pm and i am dazing in front of the laptop(as usual) with a chemistry book. Today actually planned to study anyway....ended up playing games the whole day =.= haiz....erm...there is a good news and a bad news~~~ good news is that i have learnt how to swim~~~ wheeeee~~~~ bad news is i don follow the correct way of swimming wakakaka~~~ who cares anyway~~~ can move can dy la =P but use a lotsa of energy o XD now very tired and muscle pain @_@ haiz.... XD tmr class also cancelled...nth surprising out of the college.... dunno y....this few days quite relax de.....mayb i have learnt how to take things at ease dy ba~~~ feel lighter a bit =) ....oh ya~~~~ i lost my watch at bee pee XD zzzzzz haiz.....now everyday no watch very weird like that le XD okok dy la~~~~ since nth major incident occur and i hope it will nt happen anyway~~~ i got nth more to write =P wanna K my books dy wakakaka~~~ cya lo~~~~ =P