obviously, the day after tomorrow is xmas, and by then i will be back at home, lying on my cozy bed, how blissful ^^ yesterday had our mentoring - bowling session. It's just part of our mentoring programme, so don't ask me why~ our group, i mean mentor group, scored the highest and won the first place out of 4 group ^^ overall, it's fun keke, it's hard to have all 52 of us A-Level students to get together and yesterday is the best time i ever had. And on that day also, i got back my maths result. Its freaking low and even i cannot forgive my carelessness. Ignorance and Ego-ness ruled me for so long. I have been underestimate A-level, little did i know it's goin to be such a rocky path to take. Sometimes i just wonder if last time i clicked on Accountancy and not Medicine during JPA application tender... will everything be smoother? maybe i am just not fit to be here. I am just not what i think and what others think. All these years all i depended on is just my luck in studying. Now, all is gone. What's left is just an empty-shell me, without any talent nor knowledge. I am just asinine, stupid and yet overestimate myself. I had wasted 18 years of my life, doing nothing more than to impress others with my little knowledge. How pathetic! I think i chose the wrong path... But all i can do now is going on with it.
......
i thought i could get over it,
but in the end
i couldn't
rather yet
my emotion is not mine
anymore...
ILY
sorry that i did things
that i shouldn't do
......
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