mixed up everything and you get nought

Just had a short badminton game with my roommate. Insisting him to play in the rain. Right, it's drizzling. Somehow, i like the feeling of fighting against the winds. Put all my energy in that blow, and off the shuttlecock went, against the flow. I smashed it for the last time....

Applied to my sentiment in life also. Putting all my effort against all odds. However, no matter how hard i tried to smash the shuttlecock into place, it went off way. I am it. Getting pushed over and smashed at. Never ever reach the other end of the court. Blew off course and went back to the initial point. I really tried to reach the other end and get off the initial point, flying across the net, forgoing the court behind. Nonetheless, whenever i flew up into the sky, wind of knaveries knock me off. It do seems that i always scored my own court and not the opponent. I am bad. I wondered why are there such things in this world that always try their way to blow the world upside down. This to that, that to those, those to everything. Changes everything to their own benefit. I guess it applied to every form of life. You don't have to make appointment with troubles, they find you and that's it. Looks like i still haven't learn the way of life. The way of life that condemn you for everything. Defend yourself by making the shuttlecock's head sharp, then only will you reach the other end.

... So now, the wind wins and i am back to my initial point once again...

Dropped, i knocked onto the floor,

this time so hard that i can hardly breathe,

disappointed for putting trust,

and all the so-called statement,

as tiny as i am,

looking up into the sky,

reaching my hand for it,

for i know i never will.

Somehow i know one day i will read back what i have written here and laughed at my stupidity... *smile*