End of Jan~ Beginning of a new outlook~

A blink of eye, *swoosh* January is almost gone. In fact, it's much more faster than what could be expected. Been really striving hard to study - at least better as compared to the previous semester. Spirit has once again embraced me. Biology AS should be okay ( i wouldn't use the phrase ' no problem' as Confidence still keep me at bay) Chemistry ; same old stories, my worst subjects of all. Last weekend went for ice-skating with my friend.  *smile* kinda fun, either the time spent or that i have learnt to love the feeling of frictionless. Ate sushi after that. Like that sashimi. A few days back, one of my coursemate aka my cikgu, gave me a note about all the alphabet in japanese. i am surprised of course. I know i did joke to her about my wanting to learn japanese, and she is serious about that. ^^ but anyway, i am currently taking up japanese as my foreign language. No harm learning another language right? 

Opsie... keep blogging till i have forgotten all about my chemistry test tomorrow. A2 syllabus though. One word. Hard. Oh, just remember~ today i have gotten back my result for last semester final result. 1 A out of 4 subjects, 2 if you want to consider Malaysian Studies as one subject. [ this shows how patriotic i am] =.= Only get an A for Biology. Maths and Physics all B, and what further saddened me is that my Chemistry is just a C. Couldn't blame anyone but myself. Result of over-indulging myself in entertainment. Overall, it's 13/15 marks. [calculation make using 3 best subjects]. Passed JPA minimum requirement of 12/15 but it's a close shave. Real close. Hafta pick myself up again and continue my journey in search of Confidence, accompanying by Spirit now - as always, in the past. ^^

random post out of BORINGNESS~

Weekend once again. A boring one. It's been a long time since i last posted something here. Real long. Guess i am just too busy or just too lazy to update. Anyway, everything stays the same. No much changes. Except that if you count the incident when i was late for the IELTS first class as one. *Smirk* 

*Sigh* Things don't turn out what it were to be. Didn't really have any improvement in studies. Finalize a lot of decisions that were to be made which i only make now. 

Decided to use proper English in my blog. 

Decided to stay back in college's library till 5.40 everyday. 

Decided to really strive for top academic award ( which i haven't started just yet) 

Decided to let everything follows the flow of fate ( which i denied last time ) 

Decided to really hold on to what i believed i could do

Decided to have faith in my own ambition last time ( dedicated medical student)

Decided to not let my family down 

Decided to finish all AS syllabus by this month ( extended to before CNY )

Decided to pay a visit to my teachers during secondary years if time allowed for that

Decided to really stop crapping here and start my Biology

Decided to really have to stop now

and seriously stopping now~

MSU advertisement in FB~~~

nice phrase =p haha~

2010~~~ sayanora 2009 and arigatou~~ ^^

So~~ now i am back in batu pahat, after a long way sitting in that steaming SE Super bus >.< the air-conditioner broke down, and we hafta wait for the mechanic to fix it in the seremban bus station. But before reaching seremban, i am already a toasted gingerbread xD haha~ 5 hours in all, the journey. 9am bus, but 2pm only reach here HAIZ..... anyway, after that, had my first proper meal of year 2010 in Rengit Kopitiam with my friends =) window-shop around Summit and BP Mall xD quite happy though =p though in the end i owe them one meal after a bad gamble. Haha~~ By the way, it's new year arriving. So i must have new vision xD first would be finding back my studying mood... gone for long and i think now it's the time for the mood to come back... cannot letting myself nor others down right? ^^ next would be working hard and aim for 'Top of The World Academic Award' for the four subjects [p.s. it's just an aim to motivate myself though i know the possibility of me getting it is low =p] next on the to-do list is to forget all the unhappy past and look forward for the future ^^

~~~ StUdY sTuDy StUdY ~~~

santa claus where are u?? @_@

obviously, the day after tomorrow is xmas, and by then i will be back at home, lying on my cozy bed, how blissful ^^ yesterday had our mentoring - bowling session. It's just part of our mentoring programme, so don't ask me why~  our group, i mean mentor group, scored the highest and won the first place out of 4 group ^^ overall, it's fun keke, it's hard to have all 52 of us A-Level students to get together and yesterday is the best time i ever had. And on that day also, i got back my maths result. Its freaking low and even i cannot forgive my carelessness. Ignorance and Ego-ness ruled me for so long. I have been underestimate A-level, little did i know it's goin to be such a rocky path to take. Sometimes i just wonder if last time i clicked on Accountancy and not Medicine during JPA application tender... will everything be smoother? maybe i am just not fit to be here. I am just not what i think and what others think. All these years all i depended on is just my luck in studying. Now, all is gone. What's left is just an empty-shell me, without any talent nor knowledge. I am just asinine, stupid and yet overestimate myself. I had wasted 18 years of my life, doing nothing more than to impress others with my little knowledge. How pathetic! I think i chose the wrong path... But all i can do now is going on with it.

......

i thought i could get over it,

but in the end

i couldn't

rather yet

my emotion is not mine

anymore...

ILY

sorry that i did things

that i shouldn't do

......

true? @_@

Does your name begin with: N?

You are emotional and intense. When involved in a relationship, you throw your entire being into it. Nothing stops you; there are no holds barred. You are all consuming and crave someone who is equally passionate and intense.. You believe in total freedom. You are willing to try anything and everything. Your supply of energy is inexhaustible. You want to be pampered and know how to pamper your mate.. You also enjoy mothering your mate.. You often have the greatest love affairs all by yourself, in your head. You are very imaginative.

OCTOBER

*Loves to chat *Loves those who loves him *Loves to takes things at the center *Attractive and suave *Inner and physical beauty *Does not lie or pretend *Sympathetic *Treats friends importantly *Always making friends *Easily hurt but recovers easily *Bad tempered *Selfish *Seldom helps unless asked *Daydreamer *Very opinionated *Does not care of what others think *Emotional *Decisive *Strong clairvoyance *Loves to travel, the arts and literature *Soft-spoken, loving and caring *Romantic *Touchy and easily jealous *Concerned *Loves outdoors *Just and fair *Spendthrift and easily influenced *Easily lose confidence.

October 14th - October 23rd

Silver

SILVER

You are imaginative and shy, but you like trying new things. You like to challenge yourself. You learn things easily, and like "Hard to get".. Your love life is normally hard and confusing...

home alone for a night xD

nice bacon wrapping ~

christmas festive in sunway xD lol

cute right xD haha

yupie~~~ i was home alone last night~ my roommates stayed at kelvin's house for a night... right after our bbq party. We had our bbq party last evening too at kelvin's house, with kelvin as our chauffeur, fetching us from bus stop near Asia Jaya to his place. 6 girls and 8 boys for the party. Bacons, chicken wings. fishes, sausages... you name it, we had it wakaka~~ we had a game of CS but feel sorry as we forgot all about cleaning the place =.= feel real sorry... zzzz anyway, right after the party, all the girls including me and ah long, with kelvin and alwyn as our 'responsible' chauffeur once more xD gave us a ride home to mais. And so, i am alone in my room for the long whole night xD watching comedy and finished part of a chapter in biology =.= and started to do my e-notes xD fell asleep halfway and forgot to turn off the laptop, with the same song keep playing in my media player ~~~ how lazy i am =.=

tales always have a happy ending?

i still remember most of the story tales of prince and princess that i have ever read or even listened to since childhood. i used to fanatize and fazed about all the happy ending they had or did they? recently i came across a tale that don't even have an ending or maybe it has ended but in the point of view of a reader, i rather wish at least it continues... here the story goes~~~

forget about 'Once upon a time' and all that... that and those are for those child who still fantasize on the impossible since happy endings don't exist. So i will just summarize what i learnt =P

There was a bee, amateur and just graduated from the hive. His job, procure nectar that is. But since what i am talking about now is children's tales... flower talks. And so this bee, believing he can always do his job well, stumbled upon a sunflower one day, a she, and he was in love. Everyday, before returning to the hive he would just deliberately passed by there and have a peek of her. But still he make no effort to confront or get to know her. This went on until one day he buckled up all his courage and try to befriend with her. She is a friendly, understanding and better yet kind flower.... at least to him. They soon became good friends but that didn't last. Things happen and coincided with all the misunderstandings ( i prefer to use misunderstanding rather than real problem actually, so it's subjective here) It may due to the nature of a relationship... something crackled out of a smooth relation, and then it blew. Less meetup, less chatting. And so, the lil' bee never became really into the relation with the sunflower. And the story.... of course not end here and just here. A perfect or i would say one-in-a-million best kind of flower species, was not the only beauty of one's eyes, but many....at least in this context there are one more. There was another bee, cleverer, more handsome, talented, and of course more social able. The lil' bee soon became inferior and the recent quarrel made him even more saddened and so, as most human would do oso i think ( my POV again) - the runaway. He avoided the issues at hand, and day by day, week by week, the urge of mending the broken heart is becoming dull, not because he did not love and care for the Sunflower Sister anymore, it's just he started to think maybe a stronger and better bee is more suitable for a perfect girl like her. What's more what the lil' bee been giving Sunflower is just troubles and more problems. She had even shed her dew more than once.

But then, easier is said than done and this phrase always applies. He can't control all his emotions nor his actions anymore. He discovered that without her, he is just a monotonous bee. But whenever he is with her, he felt that he is still alive, and there is meaning of life to carry on. But still, earth doesn't stop for you and time wouldn't sympathized a lil' bee like him neither. Life goes on.... The ending? It haven't been published and published yet till now, and i will keep up to date anyway ...

This is the tale of a bee, a stupid one i think =.= most story teller would continue the ending by giving the lil' bee and beautiful flower a chance to rekindled, but would this scenario happen in real world too? Prince and princess always live happily ever after? No, that is yet again, to give an innocent child a glimmer of hope i this realistic world... too realistic i would say ~~~ But then, what you think the ending should be? anyway, i will be sure to get the ending soon, hope so =)