CNY ^^

jingle bell jingle bell jingle all the way~~ >.< sorry, wrong song... purposely. In BP now. Have reunion with my family after about three months already. Last reunion is when my brothers' had their weddings ^^ Feel delightful and happy. And of course not to forget the most traditional things in chinese culture - angpau.*$_$* tomorrow am going out with my buddies to 'bai nian' Planned to tour the whole BP and visit all the friends. *smile* Got an invitation for this saturday's gathering for King Scouts. Don't know should i go or not >.< *sigh* By the way, my phone is getting weird lately and i decided to really change it after 2 years of relying on this K660. Considering nokia 5570 now~ *smile* just hope my angpaus can cover all the expenses. Till then ^^

on coming back to hometown ...

had to sort out everything before CNY that's what i thought. Misunderstanding or not. I am referring to what maybe most of you knew, so i am not going to explain any further. Especially when umair keep grumbling of how emo i have been these few months. i do admit that since been on emotional swing recently which i don't think it will repeat again. J1323 had a brudder's meeting to sort out everything. Had a midnight long meeting though. *sleepy* All in all, misunderstandings happened and we promised nothing of this sort would happen again. No one been always deliberately left out and no one had been deliberately plotting. just glad that everything went back to normal. At least all of us could have a better CNY this year ^^

p.s. the last thing you want on this earth is when doubts arise from the person you still love or like. Time will heal is just a big lie by saints ^^ *smile* i guess i should really get over my own barrier and live on ^^ 

Zoo Negara Community Service~

It's been a long time since i last blog and now i am in a blog debt. Last week, we went for National Zoo, not for visit, rather it's 'supposed' to be a charity event. The reason why i stressed on that supposed is because practically, i don't think i have been of any much help to the zoo anyway. Maybe it's just for my group. In the morning, we helped to wash the cage of monkeys, and i was to pick up all the bananas' skin, ended up picking something that is soft, which i thought it is some banana's skin, and which it is not. Not going to describe in a detail way. *sweat* It's just softy to touch. *Laugh* Other than that, we ... were asked to go for the show as the person-in-charge there didn't know anything else for us to do. And so we went for the 'Multi-Animal Show'. Lunch. Went for a real visit to the zoo. Watched a lot of things, including some intimate moments of some animals if you wondered. Basically, really did nothing or helped much in the zoo. Had our group photographs and off we went back home. *smile* All in all, we had a very good time together. Kudos to Cresendo ^^

mixed up everything and you get nought

Just had a short badminton game with my roommate. Insisting him to play in the rain. Right, it's drizzling. Somehow, i like the feeling of fighting against the winds. Put all my energy in that blow, and off the shuttlecock went, against the flow. I smashed it for the last time....

Applied to my sentiment in life also. Putting all my effort against all odds. However, no matter how hard i tried to smash the shuttlecock into place, it went off way. I am it. Getting pushed over and smashed at. Never ever reach the other end of the court. Blew off course and went back to the initial point. I really tried to reach the other end and get off the initial point, flying across the net, forgoing the court behind. Nonetheless, whenever i flew up into the sky, wind of knaveries knock me off. It do seems that i always scored my own court and not the opponent. I am bad. I wondered why are there such things in this world that always try their way to blow the world upside down. This to that, that to those, those to everything. Changes everything to their own benefit. I guess it applied to every form of life. You don't have to make appointment with troubles, they find you and that's it. Looks like i still haven't learn the way of life. The way of life that condemn you for everything. Defend yourself by making the shuttlecock's head sharp, then only will you reach the other end.

... So now, the wind wins and i am back to my initial point once again...

Dropped, i knocked onto the floor,

this time so hard that i can hardly breathe,

disappointed for putting trust,

and all the so-called statement,

as tiny as i am,

looking up into the sky,

reaching my hand for it,

for i know i never will.

Somehow i know one day i will read back what i have written here and laughed at my stupidity... *smile*

End of Jan~ Beginning of a new outlook~

A blink of eye, *swoosh* January is almost gone. In fact, it's much more faster than what could be expected. Been really striving hard to study - at least better as compared to the previous semester. Spirit has once again embraced me. Biology AS should be okay ( i wouldn't use the phrase ' no problem' as Confidence still keep me at bay) Chemistry ; same old stories, my worst subjects of all. Last weekend went for ice-skating with my friend.  *smile* kinda fun, either the time spent or that i have learnt to love the feeling of frictionless. Ate sushi after that. Like that sashimi. A few days back, one of my coursemate aka my cikgu, gave me a note about all the alphabet in japanese. i am surprised of course. I know i did joke to her about my wanting to learn japanese, and she is serious about that. ^^ but anyway, i am currently taking up japanese as my foreign language. No harm learning another language right? 

Opsie... keep blogging till i have forgotten all about my chemistry test tomorrow. A2 syllabus though. One word. Hard. Oh, just remember~ today i have gotten back my result for last semester final result. 1 A out of 4 subjects, 2 if you want to consider Malaysian Studies as one subject. [ this shows how patriotic i am] =.= Only get an A for Biology. Maths and Physics all B, and what further saddened me is that my Chemistry is just a C. Couldn't blame anyone but myself. Result of over-indulging myself in entertainment. Overall, it's 13/15 marks. [calculation make using 3 best subjects]. Passed JPA minimum requirement of 12/15 but it's a close shave. Real close. Hafta pick myself up again and continue my journey in search of Confidence, accompanying by Spirit now - as always, in the past. ^^

random post out of BORINGNESS~

Weekend once again. A boring one. It's been a long time since i last posted something here. Real long. Guess i am just too busy or just too lazy to update. Anyway, everything stays the same. No much changes. Except that if you count the incident when i was late for the IELTS first class as one. *Smirk* 

*Sigh* Things don't turn out what it were to be. Didn't really have any improvement in studies. Finalize a lot of decisions that were to be made which i only make now. 

Decided to use proper English in my blog. 

Decided to stay back in college's library till 5.40 everyday. 

Decided to really strive for top academic award ( which i haven't started just yet) 

Decided to let everything follows the flow of fate ( which i denied last time ) 

Decided to really hold on to what i believed i could do

Decided to have faith in my own ambition last time ( dedicated medical student)

Decided to not let my family down 

Decided to finish all AS syllabus by this month ( extended to before CNY )

Decided to pay a visit to my teachers during secondary years if time allowed for that

Decided to really stop crapping here and start my Biology

Decided to really have to stop now

and seriously stopping now~

MSU advertisement in FB~~~

nice phrase =p haha~

2010~~~ sayanora 2009 and arigatou~~ ^^

So~~ now i am back in batu pahat, after a long way sitting in that steaming SE Super bus >.< the air-conditioner broke down, and we hafta wait for the mechanic to fix it in the seremban bus station. But before reaching seremban, i am already a toasted gingerbread xD haha~ 5 hours in all, the journey. 9am bus, but 2pm only reach here HAIZ..... anyway, after that, had my first proper meal of year 2010 in Rengit Kopitiam with my friends =) window-shop around Summit and BP Mall xD quite happy though =p though in the end i owe them one meal after a bad gamble. Haha~~ By the way, it's new year arriving. So i must have new vision xD first would be finding back my studying mood... gone for long and i think now it's the time for the mood to come back... cannot letting myself nor others down right? ^^ next would be working hard and aim for 'Top of The World Academic Award' for the four subjects [p.s. it's just an aim to motivate myself though i know the possibility of me getting it is low =p] next on the to-do list is to forget all the unhappy past and look forward for the future ^^

~~~ StUdY sTuDy StUdY ~~~