Wednesday, December 23, 2009

santa claus where are u?? @_@







obviously, the day after tomorrow is xmas, and by then i will be back at home, lying on my cozy bed, how blissful ^^ yesterday had our mentoring - bowling session. It's just part of our mentoring programme, so don't ask me why~  our group, i mean mentor group, scored the highest and won the first place out of 4 group ^^ overall, it's fun keke, it's hard to have all 52 of us A-Level students to get together and yesterday is the best time i ever had. And on that day also, i got back my maths result. Its freaking low and even i cannot forgive my carelessness. Ignorance and Ego-ness ruled me for so long. I have been underestimate A-level, little did i know it's goin to be such a rocky path to take. Sometimes i just wonder if last time i clicked on Accountancy and not Medicine during JPA application tender... will everything be smoother? maybe i am just not fit to be here. I am just not what i think and what others think. All these years all i depended on is just my luck in studying. Now, all is gone. What's left is just an empty-shell me, without any talent nor knowledge. I am just asinine, stupid and yet overestimate myself. I had wasted 18 years of my life, doing nothing more than to impress others with my little knowledge. How pathetic! I think i chose the wrong path... But all i can do now is going on with it.
......
i thought i could get over it,
but in the end
i couldn't
rather yet
my emotion is not mine
anymore...
ILY
sorry that i did things
that i shouldn't do
......

Saturday, December 19, 2009

true? @_@

Does your name begin with: N?
You are emotional and intense. When involved in a relationship, you throw your entire being into it. Nothing stops you; there are no holds barred. You are all consuming and crave someone who is equally passionate and intense.. You believe in total freedom. You are willing to try anything and everything. Your supply of energy is inexhaustible. You want to be pampered and know how to pamper your mate.. You also enjoy mothering your mate.. You often have the greatest love affairs all by yourself, in your head. You are very imaginative.

OCTOBER
*Loves to chat *Loves those who loves him *Loves to takes things at the center *Attractive and suave *Inner and physical beauty *Does not lie or pretend *Sympathetic *Treats friends importantly *Always making friends *Easily hurt but recovers easily *Bad tempered *Selfish *Seldom helps unless asked *Daydreamer *Very opinionated *Does not care of what others think *Emotional *Decisive *Strong clairvoyance *Loves to travel, the arts and literature *Soft-spoken, loving and caring *Romantic *Touchy and easily jealous *Concerned *Loves outdoors *Just and fair *Spendthrift and easily influenced *Easily lose confidence.

October 14th - October 23rd

Silver

SILVER
You are imaginative and shy, but you like trying new things. You like to challenge yourself. You learn things easily, and like "Hard to get".. Your love life is normally hard and confusing...

home alone for a night xD

nice bacon wrapping ~

christmas festive in sunway xD lol

cute right xD haha

yupie~~~ i was home alone last night~ my roommates stayed at kelvin's house for a night... right after our bbq party. We had our bbq party last evening too at kelvin's house, with kelvin as our chauffeur, fetching us from bus stop near Asia Jaya to his place. 6 girls and 8 boys for the party. Bacons, chicken wings. fishes, sausages... you name it, we had it wakaka~~ we had a game of CS but feel sorry as we forgot all about cleaning the place =.= feel real sorry... zzzz anyway, right after the party, all the girls including me and ah long, with kelvin and alwyn as our 'responsible' chauffeur once more xD gave us a ride home to mais. And so, i am alone in my room for the long whole night xD watching comedy and finished part of a chapter in biology =.= and started to do my e-notes xD fell asleep halfway and forgot to turn off the laptop, with the same song keep playing in my media player ~~~ how lazy i am =.=

Monday, December 14, 2009

tales always have a happy ending?

i still remember most of the story tales of prince and princess that i have ever read or even listened to since childhood. i used to fanatize and fazed about all the happy ending they had or did they? recently i came across a tale that don't even have an ending or maybe it has ended but in the point of view of a reader, i rather wish at least it continues... here the story goes~~~

forget about 'Once upon a time' and all that... that and those are for those child who still fantasize on the impossible since happy endings don't exist. So i will just summarize what i learnt =P

There was a bee, amateur and just graduated from the hive. His job, procure nectar that is. But since what i am talking about now is children's tales... flower talks. And so this bee, believing he can always do his job well, stumbled upon a sunflower one day, a she, and he was in love. Everyday, before returning to the hive he would just deliberately passed by there and have a peek of her. But still he make no effort to confront or get to know her. This went on until one day he buckled up all his courage and try to befriend with her. She is a friendly, understanding and better yet kind flower.... at least to him. They soon became good friends but that didn't last. Things happen and coincided with all the misunderstandings ( i prefer to use misunderstanding rather than real problem actually, so it's subjective here) It may due to the nature of a relationship... something crackled out of a smooth relation, and then it blew. Less meetup, less chatting. And so, the lil' bee never became really into the relation with the sunflower. And the story.... of course not end here and just here. A perfect or i would say one-in-a-million best kind of flower species, was not the only beauty of one's eyes, but many....at least in this context there are one more. There was another bee, cleverer, more handsome, talented, and of course more social able. The lil' bee soon became inferior and the recent quarrel made him even more saddened and so, as most human would do oso i think ( my POV again) - the runaway. He avoided the issues at hand, and day by day, week by week, the urge of mending the broken heart is becoming dull, not because he did not love and care for the Sunflower Sister anymore, it's just he started to think maybe a stronger and better bee is more suitable for a perfect girl like her. What's more what the lil' bee been giving Sunflower is just troubles and more problems. She had even shed her dew more than once.
But then, easier is said than done and this phrase always applies. He can't control all his emotions nor his actions anymore. He discovered that without her, he is just a monotonous bee. But whenever he is with her, he felt that he is still alive, and there is meaning of life to carry on. But still, earth doesn't stop for you and time wouldn't sympathized a lil' bee like him neither. Life goes on.... The ending? It haven't been published and published yet till now, and i will keep up to date anyway ...

This is the tale of a bee, a stupid one i think =.= most story teller would continue the ending by giving the lil' bee and beautiful flower a chance to rekindled, but would this scenario happen in real world too? Prince and princess always live happily ever after? No, that is yet again, to give an innocent child a glimmer of hope i this realistic world... too realistic i would say ~~~ But then, what you think the ending should be? anyway, i will be sure to get the ending soon, hope so =)

Sunday, December 13, 2009

first week of second sem ^^


keke~~~ a photo i took after a jog at Tasik Shah Alam ^^ wakaka~~ been a long time i din go for a jog dy~~~ fat fat le xD gone are the days of six pegs (p.s as if i have it =P) so today i took the decision goin for a jog once again and it's tiring =.= haiz..... nevertheless, halfway through the jog, it's drizzling xD but i still continued anyway, cannot turned back oso =P haha, erm.... regarding studies, it's still okay for now ^^ then regarding financial xD my purse broke dy... literally xD a hole in the coin pocket xD and the coins all boozed out ~~~ and by the way, michael's came back dy xD haiz..... haha..... actually not really unhappy la, glad another roommates come back dy ^^ though just now we did have a surprise for him xD see below then~~~ =P


the surprise pasted on the door haha ^^
there~ spoilt dy xD and of course the many coins is for
photography purposes =P

Saturday, December 12, 2009

random post

today is saturday xD sunny, nice weather xD haha.... nth to do or more presicely, lazy to do. Have some more chapters of biology and chemistry to cover for the AS syllabus ^^ keke... erm.... yesterday go 1 Utama with my housemates. A 3-hour 'trip' by U82 and U80 =.= zzzzzz sit in the bus till wan die le xD basically doing nth there oso, other than window-shop, it's window-shop yet again =.= and the whole place is so big that my legs was at the brink of breaking xD though i bought nth, but still used up one note of rm50 ^^ it's not much xD haha, cox i ate for dinner at wong kok for less than rm10 =D haha, incredible, and it's delicious still keke~~~

less than rm10 =P



santa claus is coming to town~~ ^^

Thursday, December 3, 2009

holiday wan read book? @_@

so~~~~ as u can see~~~ i have my biology book opened up, ended up playing games~~~ haha xD holiday read books? or games? haha...i prefer the latter anyway =P