CNY ^^

jingle bell jingle bell jingle all the way~~ >.< sorry, wrong song... purposely. In BP now. Have reunion with my family after about three months already. Last reunion is when my brothers' had their weddings ^^ Feel delightful and happy. And of course not to forget the most traditional things in chinese culture - angpau.*$_$* tomorrow am going out with my buddies to 'bai nian' Planned to tour the whole BP and visit all the friends. *smile* Got an invitation for this saturday's gathering for King Scouts. Don't know should i go or not >.< *sigh* By the way, my phone is getting weird lately and i decided to really change it after 2 years of relying on this K660. Considering nokia 5570 now~ *smile* just hope my angpaus can cover all the expenses. Till then ^^

on coming back to hometown ...

had to sort out everything before CNY that's what i thought. Misunderstanding or not. I am referring to what maybe most of you knew, so i am not going to explain any further. Especially when umair keep grumbling of how emo i have been these few months. i do admit that since been on emotional swing recently which i don't think it will repeat again. J1323 had a brudder's meeting to sort out everything. Had a midnight long meeting though. *sleepy* All in all, misunderstandings happened and we promised nothing of this sort would happen again. No one been always deliberately left out and no one had been deliberately plotting. just glad that everything went back to normal. At least all of us could have a better CNY this year ^^

p.s. the last thing you want on this earth is when doubts arise from the person you still love or like. Time will heal is just a big lie by saints ^^ *smile* i guess i should really get over my own barrier and live on ^^ 

Zoo Negara Community Service~

It's been a long time since i last blog and now i am in a blog debt. Last week, we went for National Zoo, not for visit, rather it's 'supposed' to be a charity event. The reason why i stressed on that supposed is because practically, i don't think i have been of any much help to the zoo anyway. Maybe it's just for my group. In the morning, we helped to wash the cage of monkeys, and i was to pick up all the bananas' skin, ended up picking something that is soft, which i thought it is some banana's skin, and which it is not. Not going to describe in a detail way. *sweat* It's just softy to touch. *Laugh* Other than that, we ... were asked to go for the show as the person-in-charge there didn't know anything else for us to do. And so we went for the 'Multi-Animal Show'. Lunch. Went for a real visit to the zoo. Watched a lot of things, including some intimate moments of some animals if you wondered. Basically, really did nothing or helped much in the zoo. Had our group photographs and off we went back home. *smile* All in all, we had a very good time together. Kudos to Cresendo ^^

mixed up everything and you get nought

Just had a short badminton game with my roommate. Insisting him to play in the rain. Right, it's drizzling. Somehow, i like the feeling of fighting against the winds. Put all my energy in that blow, and off the shuttlecock went, against the flow. I smashed it for the last time....

Applied to my sentiment in life also. Putting all my effort against all odds. However, no matter how hard i tried to smash the shuttlecock into place, it went off way. I am it. Getting pushed over and smashed at. Never ever reach the other end of the court. Blew off course and went back to the initial point. I really tried to reach the other end and get off the initial point, flying across the net, forgoing the court behind. Nonetheless, whenever i flew up into the sky, wind of knaveries knock me off. It do seems that i always scored my own court and not the opponent. I am bad. I wondered why are there such things in this world that always try their way to blow the world upside down. This to that, that to those, those to everything. Changes everything to their own benefit. I guess it applied to every form of life. You don't have to make appointment with troubles, they find you and that's it. Looks like i still haven't learn the way of life. The way of life that condemn you for everything. Defend yourself by making the shuttlecock's head sharp, then only will you reach the other end.

... So now, the wind wins and i am back to my initial point once again...

Dropped, i knocked onto the floor,

this time so hard that i can hardly breathe,

disappointed for putting trust,

and all the so-called statement,

as tiny as i am,

looking up into the sky,

reaching my hand for it,

for i know i never will.

Somehow i know one day i will read back what i have written here and laughed at my stupidity... *smile*