another step ahead perhaps...

after an all night gaming till 9am, my eyelids are so heavy that i lay on my bed only to hear my dad shouting for me and said "Pos laju is here...jpa letter" i immediately got up though my brain already working at 40% efficiency. I went out with that gloomy face of mine, signed that resit and take the letter. A big one. Slowly, i opened it up using a pen knife and the first thg i saw is MSU College Shah Alam. Oh okay...that's not the main point....then i looked further for the letter, and there stated "Melaka Manipal Medical College" Program berkembar with an india allowance brochure attached behind. India!!!!! LOL.....i always joke with my friends that i would one day ended up marrying an indian wife...omg...it's coming true XD anyway, kinda sad la.....the MSU orientation - last day (ceremony) clashes with my second bro's wedding. haiz.... don't know can come back to attend or not =.= anyway, my 2nd and 3rd bro coming back today...gonna discuss with them. Btw, my 3rd bro graduated as a doc keke.....and he did try to bluff me he failed his final exam and have to retake =.= zzzzzzzz anyway, been waiting for this letter for so long already. At least less one burden in mind...eh...but it adds two more burden =.= zzzzz just hope everything will end up well =D

yet again ...

another boring day. no climax at all. --------- that's my graph for the day XD haha, anyway, most of friends already start studying and how i envy them that they have things to do. As for me, nothing. wake up, eat and sleep. Been living a pig's life at barn waiting to be slaughter =.= anyway, today i got the invitation letter from ASEAN scholarship calling me to go for the exam, got 3 exam, maths, english and general ability =.= dunno what's the general ability means.....anyway, every exams have 3 hours allocated!!!! must be 200+ Q of mathematics!!! lol @_@ all the formulas i still dunno remember or not =.= still remember that time for the petronas EDUCAMP maths test, i forgot the dy/dx=0 formula to find the min or max point XD lol, but i did get that Q right cox of Lady Luck haha, tembak je~~~ anyhow, now need to reply the letter dy, tomorrow i think...zzzz....dunno wan go or not ler~~~ since i know even i got the scholarship in the end, i still hold on to the jpa cox jpa offers me medic while asean only gives me pre-U. Medic in SG is impossible for foreigners...that i know =P haha, go or not??????? ...

Doctors' life the best?

Many people have the misconception of a doctor's life actually. Been showered by all the comments that i actually think that it's not totally true although some of it is true.

First, most people say that doctor earns much, which i would definitely disagree. Doctors nowadays don't earn much. They used to...in the olden days. Very very old. Doctors used to hold a higher status and owns a big paycheck due to their profession's rarity. But today, we are coming to a doctors' boom actually. Doctors here and there. And doctors, apart from their heavy responsibities in saving lives, some, who, very unfortunate, have one of their patients dies, been sued for their mistakes. I dunno why most people only grumble about their mistake and very rare that on occasion we see patients are grateful to the doctors because most of them think that that is their responsibility and work.

Second, doctors here is truly having miserable life. Let's say a doctor, after having done through the on-call system, working 36 hours ++ in the hospital, gets home, lie down on the bed, and then the phone rings, emergency call, and he would have to rush back to the hospital. That's what really happen. They don't have private life at all. When i say 'at all', it's really like that.

Then maybe you will ask me why i choose medicine then? Well, i could only say, i used to make doctor an aim so that i could achieve much in SPM. Inspiration and motivation. But now, i found that despite all the cons that flood the pros, i am really into it already. I really don't want to waste my life away, living a rich guy, doing nth but doing their habitual thg every little day (eat, work, sleep, and so on) To me, it's just too monotonous. But as a doctor, i could maybe save one or two lives. Even though in the end they may not thank me for that, i would still be happy just to be able to drag someone back from the netherlands. Some ppl may say i am just under parents' pressure or that i have other bad motives in being a doc that i may not like. Seriously, my parents don't want me to be a doctor, they want...erm..not want cox they never forced me, they recommend a lawyer you know? A lawyer~~~ I dunno why...mayb cox if i am a lawyer, then they would have a chemist, engineer, doctor, and lawyer at home. But ofc that may not be what they are thinking. Being a lawyer is not a bad thing, but it's just not to my interest.

I know that one of the days ahead i may feel that maybe medicine is not my stuff anyway. But i can say forehanded that i would never regret as i have chosen what i want to be now and at least for now, i am happy for my decision. Maybe in a year's time i would realize how unfit i am for the job, but there is always a way out. So, sometimes, it's better to look ahead far enough, but at other times, looking too far may caused u even more troubles. haha, that reminds me of 'The Road Not Taken' =P

LOL

here i am again to talk about my boring-almost-coming-to-an-end holidays. First let me brief of what i have been doing. On the top of the list is.....driving!!!! bua hahaha, driving can be fun, could be frustrated oso due to some very very very overbearing drivers on the road LOL, anyway, i drove to lateh, movie-ing. Next is ofc moviessssss, watch a lotsa this week at MBO and BIG big big big cinema. Night at the Museum 2, Mall Cop, Monster vs Aliens =.=, Wolverine, and Star Trek. Can't believe all of this are being scanned through in just 2 weeks. And yet again, draining low =( no $$ dy =P been reading 'Rich Dad, Poor Dad'. It's very educational esp on financial literacy but not recommend to those schoolers cox this book don't encourage too much schooling anyway. Then today, snatched 3 books that should cost about rm150+ at only rm15 at carrefour!!!!! can't believe myself also. Authors like Nora Roberts' and Steve Berry's workpieces!!! omg...this is not a steal, it's a ROB LOL 3 hours from now i should be at the stadium for KLT meeting aka football~~~ IF i could ever wake up then =P haha, cya

worst still ...

these few days are just so damn boring and stupid. Been working to earn more money. Draining low ... lateh and kbox too much i think, hafta stop already. And today, just now i mean, i was so moody. Don't ask me why, too many factors. And i went to parkson and shop for new clothes. Just when i went to the Renoma section, my dad showed me one of the clothes but it's in L size. I did want to try out the shirt that time, but the promoter there is so unprofessional and arrogant. She was talking to her maybe-friends during working hours. Okay, acceptable, who wouldn't slack when working? Then she was like very unwillingly and said got size S, when asked. Then, i also dunno till now why she had been laughing all the way to her friends and keep repeating that phrase about 4-5 times to my dad. I was starting to infuriated. All the burdens and troubles all this while in my mind all added up at one time. But i endured. Okay, i left the section and the last word that came out of her is 'Cheh, leceh'. My BP was boiling. I am trying to control myself already. At the real end limit. I used the escalator went upstairs but the feeling of being insulted was getting stronger and stronger. And so, i did something that i have never done before. With an already-sulking and angry face i supposed, i went down, go in front of her and asked her name. Saw the name tag actually. Deliberately want to let her know i am going to complain. She didn't answer. But at that moment, it's like all my courage bucked up. Then, i walked away, was trying to ask the cashier nearby for the office room. Luckily, seriously, luckily, my dad stopped me. And then, i deliberately spoke in english and in a rather high voice that " We have the customer's right, how could she said like that? Is this how this shopping mall operate?" i asked my dad. And at that very moment, i am back to normal again after thinking through. I think that if i was not stopped, i would probably end up in the office complaining. I am sure of that since i was so fed up that time, which i never experienced before. Today is such a asinine day.

dumb~

seriously, i feel dumb. People are greedy, i mean, i am damn greedy. It is already considered lucky that i get the jpa miraculously. And now, i am feeling uneasy cox i din get a call from jpa asking me to go for russian language kursus which is starting this sunday. Dumb me. Feel the tingy though. Should have been glad for getting the scholarship and now i am craving for more in selected countries. =.= just coudn't get rid of the feeling. Anyway, for those who still dunno yet, i am writing a blog of story now entitled "Lineage of Sphinx" here or manually http://lineageofsphinx.blogspot.com/. As an intro, uh-hmm, it sets in a magical kingdom called Gordon, with the main character, Cassiopeia, getting back what her family has lost. Just that i can divulge now, as that's what i know oso for now. Actually writing this is just a sudden rush and i immediately wrote one, ignoring what plot and bla bla bla, lol, so if u have the time to spare, check this web out ya =D suspence on the way~~~ haha

turning point of my life~

from a nobody to one more step to my dream. I rmb how i craved to be a doc, and how i have been wanting to be one, and today, i just did it =D very happy, it's like a gift from government haha, though this is just the very beginning of a very long road, but i am glad dy =D keke, overflown by joy, today, for relaxation b4 seeing the result at 5pm, i went to GP and played the Left 4 Dead, the game is nice...really, very challenging and fun, but then, after 3 hours of crossfire, i hafta face the computer at home at 5pm. I check the website....server down, after much tries, i got in, but still cnt check, F5 then became my favourite button, pressed every 3-4 minutes, but still cnt until 7pm and i gave up. Stomach growling. My first meal of the day...seriously...first meal. I also just realize that XD then went out for party. It's a sending-ppl-off party....i mean sending us off, tmr, er...i mean, 3 hours from now, everyone would be in their respective vehicle, bus or taxi, going to pursue their further studies dy. Friends seperated. But i am sure we can meet again =D haha, that's friends keke, and wf our Mr. OC poahong here, a lateh session is sure to have LOL mayb not hamid corner bp dy, but hamid corner in kl LOL, anyway, now very tired dy, sang karaoke till my voice box hoarse dy XD haha, o o time dy cya =D