holiday~~

screwed my mid sem xD almost every paper got leave blank o...haiz.....where has the old ah ngo gone to? =P nvm ba...let bygones be bygones lo~~~~ now must really strive hard for better results le =D hope i can do it....anyway, now the holidays is nearing o, tmr is the last day of lecture dy and after that...we finally have our long awaited holidays~~~ raya holidays ofc =P but i am not going back bp so soon o...will be going taiping to attend my bro's wedding first...then maybe 21st only back in bp lo =) don miss me ya xD haha..will be back soon de =P keke....btw, these days got ppl kp throw fire crackers downstairs from the block above. Sometimes i wondered how in the world got such ppl exist? Don't they know how danger that would be? or what if they hurt someone? They think that playing like this is fun =.= childish...in the extreme extent haiz.....

crappy day for me =.=

had my math test today and i freaking leave 1 question blank ..... dunno y cnt figure out that question that time......tensed up? no,,,,,,,din study till the last minute =.= the result for not studying and i can't blame anyone for my own laziness. You reap what you sow and i sow nth.....zzzzz....tmr is chemi again and chemi is still my worst subject...screwed up my bio and math dy =.= haiz....damn moody now o.....help~~~~~

love is~

妥协 - 蔡依林

你总爱编织谎言 我负责配合表演
所有改变 只为了进入你的世界
这情节 重复了一百遍
才发现 是你的心太野
你划定楚河汉界 我不能轻易犯规
所有时间 都是先给了你优先权
不自觉 爱到不敢冒险
成了你的傀儡一年两年
才看见我有多狼狈
爱到妥协 到头来还是无解
绑着你 不让你飞
历史不断重演 我好累
爱到妥协 也无法将故事再重写
你已下最后通牒 我躲在我的世界
你只是害怕一个人睡
我不想在为你掉泪
我了解 不会变 不再徘徊
开始自己的明天

Guilt

yupie, i am guilty xD i am here initially to have a good study and learning, but as of today, i just knew i did nth of these in the last 2 months. Been lazing around xD and today is the 1st time i really concentrate all my focus in reading since i am here =.= been a long time since this feeling been gone after SPM and today he came back to me wakakaka...but still maybe it's too late xD tuesday exam dy aiks.....dunno how will my mid-sem result o =.= so worry xD lol, so..........so as not to let down he who-has-just-returned, i hafta chg my lifestyle dy xD slp at 11pm wake up at 5 to study ~~~~~ yayaya...lol...easier said than done anyway xD LOL and i won't follow the flow of lecturer ever again =.= hafta make my way out of all the syllabus =P wakaka~~~ wish me good luck for my mid-sem then =P gonna continue my chemi now =.= aiks..... =)

adrenaline feeling ...

awh~~~ too tired of reading chemistry dy...but have a sudden urge to be a poet and so here it goes~~ p.s rmb to leave some comment =P

monolithic he were,

rigidly viewing the land,

laying motionless beneath him.

reminiscence ensued,

of all

the hill conquered,

the river traversed,

the jungle explored,

with only one purpose,

purpose of his existence,

foraging and searching.

an ant he were,

with diligence and commitment,

surviving the world he had,

the world of a garden.

LOLOLOLOL, i know this is a bad poem. No rhythm or watsoever xD well~~~~~ impromtu wat =P keke...anyway, Lesson of the story...er...the poem....is even an ant try hard to survive in its own world, why am i still so lazy don wan to continue my chemistry xD HAHA =.=

the sky is clear again ^^

everything is back to normal and i am just happy ^^ sometimes it is really a relieve to be truthful xD keke......strive for 4 flat for now~~~ aza aza fighting =D~~~ btw......got someone promise to get 4 flat oso or else will become 猪婆 de wor~~~~ wakaka =P

emo-ing~

very very very stress + moody. Haiz....maybe because of missing the time wf friends or maybe of somethg else i dunno. Just knew that next week is the mid-sem exam, which i don even know to sit for an exam that i dunno the format and how to answer.....BUT whenever i open up my book, my mind went blank =( dunno y i can't even cope wf 5 subjects~ lost all my fighting spirit ..... living easy for too long i think xD haiz....sometimes really feel the uselessness in me. after mid-sem is holiday~~~ wanting to go back so much. Not because of homesickness...just don like to be here, staring at the squarish laptop everyday, facing the same problem everyday, and facing the same books everyday.

i lost my dedication,

i lost my spirit,

lost my hope,

lost my aim.

what i am gaining is nothing

but a bunch of lessons learnt

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