PPKSD (season finale) XD

final day. Mood = sad and disappointed. LOL it's quite memorable the experience during the whole course though. Seen much, hear much and learn much =P today is the day in medical ward. It's crowded and the sister there is nice. At least notices our presence and gives some talk. Saw the quarantine room for mentally impaired patients. Then we go to the post mortem, last night case. I missed the most interesting part - cranial opening XD cnt see the brain when it is my turn XD Cox it's friday....today the lunch time for us would be from 12.15 to 2.45. "It's gonna be a long time" my first thought. But things seem not to be that. I ended up chatting the whole way through with my colleagues. XD 2 hours chat. I also dunno how i could have done that =P talk about childhood memories, how many times we have met before but dunno each other and reasons being a doc. Then, around 3pm, we are in the dewan for the final speech by sister and off we are done XD 5 days, too quick XD my only regret is that i did not go to the pediatrics ... overall it's a nice programme. =D then we had our group photographs ^^ knew a lot of new friends too and most of them i think would be a good doc =P haha..... =D

PPKSD (4th day)

ello~~~ here i come again XD haha. This very day we had our visit in surgical ward. Nothing special though. Met a patient with gangrene disease, highly contagious, and emitting a foul smell at the same time. We are not allowed to get any nearer to the quarantine room anyway. But the smell could be felt in the corridor too. Saw a respiratory suction too. patient breathing through a tube inserted directly to the trachea. Could see the patient is suffering though.....And then today we did meet a prof from IMU. He's friendly ^^ haha...though in the end we still could not meet wf him as schedule....4 to 5 or 4.25 XD these two same syllable thing makes me and my group mates argued XD haha...but then in the end no one is the winner XD Blood donation campaign and there we spent the rest of our day XD After that, we went home and planned to come back at 9pm. But plan, as the name implies, is just a plan. While i was still in dreamland, i got a call from cheow telling me there is an accident near my house XD it's really near....i changed my clothes and grabbed a 100Plus as my dinner =.= and go to the scene. Ambulance was there when i reached and the patient is on the stretcher. But unconscious or worse i dunno. He just lay still. And discovering we would be slower than the ambulance to reach the ER, Cheow and i rush to the car and go to the hospital. But still we are still slower than it =P anyway, by the time we reached the A&E could only see the ending procedure.....u know what i mean XD and so we waited in the forensic in the hope post-mortem would be performed soon but in the end we were informed it would be done tmr morning at 9am. aiks...i would be in the medical ward by then.....gonna miss it....anyway, this programme is getting more and more interesting, but the imperfection is that tmr is the last day XD haha...things like that, the more we want something, the harder it gets XD till then =P

PPKSD (3rd day)

Today our schedule is in the O&G. The whole day is okay. Learn quite a lot XD learn how to take BP, body temperature, hear foetus' heartbeat....it's fast XD about 140bpm for normal foetus =P and then saw a few babies, they are cute =D wonder how was i when i was in the incubation last time XD but babies sure are cute...haha....and just now all of us oso went for the post mortem. It's exciting at first but the feeling is just not right. The details inside i cnt say cox it's supposed to be confidential. But luckily i am not scare at all when witnessing everythg XD but felt a bit of sad when u see the patient's family cried. It is really very different. Since the first day of this program all of us have been wanting to see one. But i think today all of us should feel sorry for our thinking these few days. Being so wanting to see a post mortem.....we r actually wanting ppl to demise. It's just not right. But what could be done? Maybe what this programme really wanted us to know is not just to know how doc handle stress, it's how u handle ur feeling though. XD haha.....but anyway, today's okay. And actually, most ppl here aren't as sincere as u thik though XD haha, even when we r in the same school....but actually i am prepared for that already....cox i just know them well when schooling together....haha =P till then =P

PPKSD (2nd day)

2nd day in hospital for the PPKSD. Early in the morning we get our participants' tag and a new schedule at the information counter. Today, my group is to go to the orthopedics due to reschedule problem. Well, nothing much here except the morning ward rounds is very exciting. Exciting means to be able to see something related to doc of course. There are 2 patients, who got a deep...very deep scar - one in his thighs, another patient is near the heels there. It is real deep...erm...dy can say half-an-index-finger depth. So u can imagine....the gross part is not here...it is the doctor use his index finger and dug into it XD okok...after that part...everything is yet again monotonous with a little chit-chatting with my groupmates and a little of other interest-arousing activities and some dressing wounds procedure performed by the nurses there. All i could say is that all the nurses in this ward is kind ^^ And until about 4.30pm, its the end of the day~~~ And then something came up my mind. Stay until 9pm XD and i told all the others to see whether anyone wanna join my ridiculous idea XD obviously no one, cox everyone is real tirede including me XD but....i still went on anyway. I went to the A&E - the ER to stay until 9pm. To my surprise too, there are 2 rather serious cases. Assault case. The patient had a crack on his head and arms. I saw the MA there stitch the wound up XD it's very interesting. It's real XD not in drama =P haha another case is machine related accident. Half of the index finger is cut horizontally, which means the index finger is divided into upper and lower part XD this is......zzzzz.....it's really.......and i could even see it's bone!!!! omg....and the patient keep shouting and tears started to roll down when the doc is trying to help. And so...i call up the day as it's 9pm already~~~ other cases are like fracture and other usual type......the 2 cases i mention top in my day anyway XD today is very eventful and let me know more things~~~ better than the 1st day =D haha...cya....

PPKSD (first day)

PPKSD, wonder what's that? it's program pendedahan kerjaya seorang doktor. today is the first day and all of the 31 participants is divided into 5 groups. Practically, there are 5 'big' topic we r going to learn, namely, 1. A&E/forensic/specialist, 2. medical, 3. surgical, 4. O&G, 5. orthopedics. As i am in the group 1, so today my topic would be the first one. First of all, we r to 'visit' each specialists room. There r 5 - 1. psychiatric, 2. orthopedic, 3. optometry, 4. dentistry, 5. O&G. Everything is very monotonous, except that in the O&G....it's the first time i truly see an ultrasound on foetus so close XD but in the end, i still couldn't figure out which is which though the doc told us that this is head, stomach and so on =.= and after all those 'visit', we went to A&E after lunch. A&E = ER actually. Nothing much here though, except a doctor who shares her experience with us and telling us the pros and cons of this profession. Then , she took the 7 of us to the mortuary. okok, it's the first time i am going in this type of room, though no post mortem is being performed which is very unfortunate XD but there is one body in the 'refrigerator'---don't know the exact name....murder case, got bruise, scars, and the sign of being post-mortem-ed before which is a very long scar starting from the neck to the lower body XD the whole chest collapsed due to the rib cage removed XD and we r actually watching it in about 1 metre or even less XD haha....and so....that's the end of the day~~ the whole day is not very eventful, but it is tiring XD *yawn* till then =P btw, sry for not posting any photo cox it is not allowed here =(

doc look O.O|||

today i phoned the person-in-charged of the pre-interview programme about the appropriate attire during the whole course. And so the criteria is a 'doctor look' XD okok, i went for a haircut just now, ended up an incredible short hair @_@ and then bought 2 ties and a tiepin, it's expensive XD =.= prepare my formal shirts and slacks, and everything is on the go, but still the new short hair looks dumb =P haha~~~ btw, by next monday will be in hos for 8 hours daily for 5 days consecutive 9am - 5pm. woot~~~ a somewhat doc's life and what i have been waiting for...

hospital hospital hospital~~~ XD

OMG!!!!!!!!!! can't believe i got the letter to go to hospital XD so happy ~~~ though this is not the first time i go to hospital to 'lawat', but it's the first time i am stepping nearer to the dream~~ but at the same time, got a little scare the post mortem, gosh, watching 'ppl' being slaughter or butcher is zzzzzzz, but wat to do?~~~ that's wat i am going to do next time, have to face it too, no pain no gain, eh...correction, no gross no gain XD XD XD XD ops...haven say the date ler~~~ 23rd march to 27th march~~ 5 days~~ haha, dunno wat will happen, but will keep this blog updated anyway~~ and so, cya~~

12 march

12 march. LOL. big day, but i can't measure how big la =P early in the morning>>quite early>>around 9 a.m >.> i am already in the school hall LOL waiting for the results that had been waiting for 3 months xD sitting in the hall, the thumbing of the heart just kept non-stop...ofc =P and so i wait and wait, chatting wf friends and finally reach the moment!!!! the moment for pengetua to give a speech >.> oh gosh....and so the time went by =D and then there is one ceremony for calling ppl wf straight A to go upstage and receive the slip....zzzzz...wat a idea >.> and it is announce that our sch have only 8 10a1....woot....and so the roll-call begun...the 1st one..not me @_@ 2nd...not me 0.0|| 3rd..not me O.O||||| 5th~~~~ finally xD LOL, dunno how my blood pressure shoot up =P wakaka...actually the above statement is for fictional purpose =P the truth is my class tc already come and tell me the result just before the ceremony begun =P haha... but the above emoticons is absolutely true~~ =D i thought that is the end, but no >.> it's just the beginning, have lotsa to do, need to apply so many thgs, do so many thgs, and prepare so many thgs >.> and the most infuriating thg is that i just found that my scouts cert is not wf me >.> and go back sch to search the kerani told me the cert is not wf them?? =.= then where would my cert go @_@ zzzz .... all in all, here's begins Sphinx Certs' Hunt xD LOLOLOLOL cya..till next time =D

a glimpse of where to go~~

12 March. the decision day xD though i haven't decide which courses would i take after this, but there is one thing that i am sure is that my interest is in biology~~ cox i found that whenever i am reading it, i can understand it =D unlike physics and chemistry that could even took me a few hours to understand a chapter. haha... quite happy though cox i finally saw some pathway into my life ^^ and i see many of my friends still struggling in finding their own interest. remember to just follow ur first intention and u will know it~~

On the brisk of dying...

one week more to SPM result and i am still unsure of what to study after this. Feel so pathetic. Been study for 11 years and i just discovered that i have been studying for the sake of studying. Whenever ppl asked me of my own interest, i just went dumb and deaf. Not because i was trying to keep it a secret, neither am i being arrogant, but it's just i, too am ignorant of it. Some say medicine is a sure for me. But i have been thinking whether i could be a good doctor as i know doctor is not an occupation, rather it's a commitment - for a lifetime. Being a doctor means spending most of your time with patients. Being a doctor means depriving your own time wih your family. Doctor has been my aim since i began my Form 5 studies..maybe..but now i realize that i may not be up to it. And so, i am stunned. Pursuing a dream for almost a year and now it's all becoming a dream or rather, a nightmare to me. If not doctor, what should i study? I always score bad in my chemistry and i don't like physics. Lawyer is out too. And another problem is that Pre-U studies. Facing a great dealt of financial problem. If i could not get a scholarship to sustain my tuition fees, the only road left is STPM - which is also the last route i would take cause i know STPM is no more an easy exam. A-level in private U is the best option but also undeniable the most expensive route to take, which has been limited to me. Came to no conclusion after thinking hard for several days. What to do next?
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