Frustrated

today suddenly feel so frustrated and moody. At the thought of "what if" keep haunting me....what if i din get the jpa? what if i din get into matriculation? what if i have to go back to hsbp to study form 6? i dunno why before this, these questions have never been in my mind. Sometimes i have to admit i am too too too over-confident. When this over self-esteem breaks down, these questions are like troops of army rushing behind the barrier that once kept them away, into my mind. aiks....so frustrated and tensed up. And seeing other ppl have dy get wat they want.....makes me look left behind. The medic road i took is it really that hard? if last time i just took up engineering then maybe now i wouldn't be in the fork road of life here anymore. Dilemma....but if i took up engineering would i be happy? though i could study without using any $$, would happiness sttill be mine? aiks.......today is just such a moody day =.= i have pinned all my hope on jpa and if i din get it, all would be gone, 10A1 is just a paper then, nth more than that as a paper that couldn't get a place in jpa......sometimes i ask y must i making my life so difficult? isn't it better to just take engineering or even dentistry that i could have better chance? ..... May god bless me...hope jpa wil just pick me up from all the 8000 candidates ...